When we came out the weather had cleared and it was colder.
Worked on small pictures: The 1951 Zimmerman Road Queen Anne's Lace at Twilight--
The 1952-Insects in our backyards - (Should I call it an insects jam-session? - It is a riot of color & insect motifs.)
My life is leading me further and further from it. Can I ever, sometime, go back and learn anew? Perhaps. If not, I will at least always have with me a divine love of all things nature which will be something.
This dew drenched spurry valley is a wonderful thing on misty mornings. Shrub willows star-studded which, snapped by the new born breeze, flung upward pieces of silver that struck by the sun were given voice & dissolved into killdeers.
Played the Sibelius Third tonight. In the latter part of the last movement...you wonder how can he possibly bring it all to a reasonable conclusion—end it with honor as it were—But he does...
The Autumnal Equinox takes note of dying plants which assumes grotesque shapes & attitudes
My “fame” seems to fascinate him, although I wish he could forget that phase of my life “you're famous, aren’t you” with embarrassing directness – “You’re in encyclopedias and dictionaries.” Mostly however his attitude towards me is one of free and easy comradeship, which is the way I want it.
Trains roaring in the black night have suddenly taken on a strange significance. Yesterday at noon as I looked from my window seeing the vivid sunflowers in the startlingly sunlight; two jagged yellow lines sweeping past marked the course of two butterflies.
“It is pleasanter to be choked to death with a silver spoon than it is to die of hunger, but the spoon will produce just as complete a death.”
“So much work today is so well done- pictures and stories so competent, so neat, so finished as to surface, so void of mistakes, so knowing, so lacking in recklessness, so timid, played so safe, so made for the market, so lacking in hope and life and reach, so entirely worthless, that one is relieved when one sees a man go after a big idea and fail—a big failure is better than a little success.