day to do all manner of work that they should not do –
     How I scorn and + loathe myself because I cannot ignore these debasing influences in American art and paint with bold lusty disregard of their false and weak standards – paint the raw crude healthy aspects of nature that I love – Because they are the dominant power I must earn my own + my family’s daily bread doing work that is directly opposed to my ideals in art – but were I a really strong character I should struggle thru with a few great things in spite of everything –
     It is a raw crude November day – menacing layer clouds with occasional flurries of snow –